My apologies :)
Things have been crazy the past couple of weeks!
Well maybe not crazy, but definitely busy!
I'm home from Spain, have been for a little over a month. I started my new job and am on week four.
I'm trying to salvage what little social life I have left since a lot of my friends moved while I was gone this summer. I'm trying to stay involved in church while also finding new ways to get involved and continue to grow in my faith.
It's a balancing act, trying to fit all of these different aspects of my life together like a puzzle. It's a puzzle that everyone is always trying to put together, no matter what stage of life you're in, what age you are, whether you're single or married or an empty-nester.
The problem is, as always, we try to apply the principles of our everyday life to God and our relationship with Him. We try to squeeze him in the puzzle in between the workout piece and the go to school or work piece. It looks different for everyone, but it's all the same. We're trying to balance God in our lives with everything, making sure we devote equal time and energy to all aspects of our lives. That is so wrong!
God is not human, He is not bound by our human limitations or rules.
We cannot, nor should we try to, balance our time with God with everything else in our life.
How dare we short God on the time we devote to Him? After the life He breathed into us, after the grace and mercy He has lavished on us, after the ways He has blessed us, we still just try to "fit Him in."
It kills me that my walk can look like this. I'm supposed to have a relationship with my Heavenly Father, and just like any earthly relationship, it's going to require effort, work and commitment. If it means waking up fifteen minutes earlier in the morning to spend more time in prayer, or to dig deeper into His word, or if it means stepping out of my comfort zone and going out on a limb, stretching myself in ways I didn't think were possible, whatever it means, I need to make that effort.
God deserves at least that much from me.
He deserves to be my one and only, my true devotion, the object of my affections and desires, the one I long to see. How dare I try to squeeze Him in along with my workout and nap?
God is not about balance. He's about all or nothing, giving all of myself, dying completely to myself and my earthly desires.
I want God to be my one and only.
