It's still hard though, trying to wrap my head around the idea that it's okay that I'm back home. I'm not a failure as a college graduate, no one is disappointed in me. They all accept the fact that I'm in a transition period, which is something I am still working on accepting.
In a little over a week I will be in Spain, for two months. I'm still wrapping my head around that fact too. But that fact is helping me be okay with my transition period. It's okay that I don't have a job because it's allowed me to spend more time with those people who are important to me, who I won't get to see for at least two months. It's okay that I've moved home because I needed to be reminded how important my family is.
I've come to realize how important transition periods are for us. If we just jumped right from one experience to the next, without time to process and recuperate, we'd fall apart. We need these times to process what we've just gone through and prepare for the coming changes.
I think God has been using this time to prepare me for my upcoming adventures, in ways that I probably won't even know until I get there, but I'm becoming more grateful for this time of rest, peace and quality time with those I love. And I'm looking forward to spending more quality time growing in my relationship with God. He has already taught and shown me so much in the months leading up to this trip, and I haven't even left yet! I can't even imagine what He'll reveal to me once I'm there.
So as I start to pack and make my lists, update my ipod with new music and invest in a neck pillow, I am beginning to be truly excited about this experience that God has provided for me. There is now no doubt in my mind that this is where I'm supposed to be, and I am anxious to begin this journey! But until then, I'm going to relish my transition time.
